It’s been awhile since I’ve written, shame shame. A lot of stuff going on though.

So the short film I acted in, “A Baby Away”, has been doing really good hitting the festival market.

It is now currently the official selection at the Hollywood Black Film Festival, San Francisco Black Film Festival, AND Martha’s Vineyard Black Film Festival!!

WOW! I’m impressed.

Finally got my reel updated (including a scene from A Baby Away), you can check it out on my site and of course MySpace and YouTube!!

Had my screening for the feature film “Losing Faith” that premiered. At first I was really nervous because I hadn’t seen the finished project, but came out REALLY GOOD!! I’m excited. Going to be hitting festivals soon!

Finally heard back from the producers of “No Answer”, they are anticipating completion by the end of the summer

So I’m still plugging along, so far so good.

Teaming up with a friend of mine to get some movies green lit and slated. Just gonna hammer them out!!!

Might be signing with the agency The Gage Group, crossed fingers.

So that’s what’s up with Nikki Love. Nothing new.

On another note. I have been pondering on this concept of eternity.

If Eternity is everlasting, doesn’t that mean that we are in it right now?! And if we are in the middle of eternity, endless time until the Lord sees fit, we are just these beings on a tiny tiny spectrum of the timeline. What are you doing with your time? Are you wasting it or utilizing it?

Eternity is such an awesome concept is it not? This universe has been in existence for billions of years, and here we are. At THIS time, at THIS place, with THESE people surrounding us. Why now? Why weren’t you designed and roaming the earth 100 years ago, why not 10,000 years ago…

FOR SOME GODLY REASON, you are designed to be the person you are RIGHT NOW on this neverending spin through space on the timeline of “eternity”….

How amazing and awesome is that??

hmmm….

So you guys know I’ve been kinda hard on myself the past few weeks/months! LOL!

So when I finally decided to stop being so negative and just keep doing what I’m doing things started panning out a little.

I am now SAG Eligible! YAY about damn time!

I have my feature film “Losing Faith” screening next week.

“A Baby Away”, a short film by Courtney Franklin, has been accepted into the Hollywood Black Film Festival (which is next month) AND the San Francisco Black Film Festival (next month)! Yes, I was the lead! And so me and Courtney are going to head up to San Fran and make it do what we do…

REEL Ladies has been frikking soaring and I can’t wait to post pictures from event the other night. We’ve got some fantastic ladies lined up. We have featured Jennifer Schaefer, who was amazing, Amy Lyndon, which I have GOT to get into her Booking Class (www.coldreadingclasses.com), Andrea Wiley, who will just give you goose bumps, and much more. Make sure you check it out. And our radio show is now a FEATURED show on Blog Talk Radio. YAY!

So yes, I am excited. Now if I could just FINISH THE FRIKKIN SCRIPT!!!

but hey, whaddya gonna do? can’t have everything…

Ahhhhh busy busy busy. That’s a good thing I guess. 

Been trying to hustle. Trying to line some things up for Scrapbooks, so far it’s looking good. I have to worke on my music clearances, and I could possibly get distribution and/or have it aired on tv. We’ll see. *prayer and crossed fingers*.

It’s been a lot going on, I’m just trying to keep up! 

Work and film, film and work. I have an audition on Monday. I hope, no I NEED to book this!

Good news is that a film that I was in, A Baby Away, got accepted into the Hollywood Black Film Festival, so I’m excited about that! Written, Produced, & Directed by Courtney Franklin. I was the lead, so of course that adds to the excitement. 

Going to Vegas in 2 weeks. Yaaaay! Cuz I need a break, goodness. I have been having cramps in my neck, can’t really sleep and busting my ass at work. I’m exhausted.

I’m trying to change my attitude of late. I’ve been real hard on myself, but if I’M not, who will be? Nobody else can put pressure on me, nobody else can motivate me to get off my ass. Nobody is gonna hustle for me. So I gotta do it myself. I had come to the realization that “I get out, what I put in”. Which means if I put doubt and negativity out there, that’s exactly what’s going to come back to me.

So guess I need to step my game up!

The past two weeks I have been busy getting REEL Ladies networking off the ground. We had our first networking mixer at the ladera chess cafe, it went great! Me and keena had originally said, “okay, if we get 20 women to come out, then we have something”. But then like 75 had RSVP’d so we freaked out and had to go rent chairs and buy all this extra shit, but of course only like 30 showed up. We had candles, wine, food, and Miss Angela Gibbs. She shared her journey with the ladies. How she hit roadblocks as a filmmaker and an actress. It was amazing.

What 2 women can do. I think we lost some of our audience because we did it in Inglewood. Hell, I know I JUST started going out there myself!! And that’s only to the cafe!! LOL

So we are going to move it to a more central location. Went and networked and passed out some of our fliers at the Sisters Doing it for Themselves and SWAN Day with the Alliance of Women Directors.

Anywhoo, I am inspired. I feel like my mojo had diminished some, but I see it coming back.

Sometimes the dream is soooo frikkin tangible and sometimes it’s so distant.

I’ve been exhausted. I have 2 scripts to finish and I’ve been stuck. My brain has been racing too much, I can’t focus. I sit down to write and nothing…*sigh*

I feel like I am back at that place again, where I am pouring my energy into the wrong things. Like An Empowered Woman. Don’t get me wrong. I like that job, but hell…IT’S A JOB!

If I had the choice, of course I want to work for myself. I want to act. I want to model…”Mama, I Wants to SANG!!” LOL

So it’s a constant battle. Get up go to work. Collect a paycheck. Hustle for REEL Ladies, Hustle for JNL Media. Hustle for Nikki Love…all on the side!

Don’t want MY projects to be on the side. That’s just craziness to me. But bills gotta get paid, rent is due!! So mama has to hustle.

Keep striving, keep moving, keep dreaming, keep hustling, keep putting one foot in front of the other. REEL Ladies has inspired me. Talking to these women, have inspired me. I’m in awe.

Make sure you check out our REEL LADIES BLOG.

Some days are rough.
Some days you know in your soul, in your gut, that you are going to bring forth everything you’ve ever dreamed of. And some days, you have to talk yourself outta just packing up and heading home.

The No’s

*Sigh*Scrapbooks didnt get into Tribeca. Damn. That’s like 4 festivals. A waste of money.
Beverly Hills Shorts said no, Atlanta said no, Tribeca, and the Black Maria. Waiting to hear from Hollywood Black Film Festival and LA Film fest. Still have to submit to Chicago REEL Shorts, Naperville, Martha’s Vineyard and a few more.

In the meantime I am going broke!!!

The Yes’s:

REEL Ladies is really taking off! I spoke with Euzhan Palcy. She was the first black women to direct a feature film. She told me to call her back after the 20th because she was travelling. WOW. I told her about REEL Ladies and that we wanted to spotlight her, she said YES!  WhoooHoo!

Got an email back from Tanya Kersey’s publicist and she is able to do the radio show Thursday Evening!!! She is the founder/creator of the Hollywood Black Film Festival. 

OH….and Taraji Henson’s publicist said Taraji is out of town right now filming Tyler Perry’s movie, but contact her in April and we can set something up!! YAY

*sidenote* why aren’t I out filming Tyler Perry’s movie??? damnit. here comes that old self doubt demon.  

So do the yes’s outweigh the no’s? Not really. REEL Ladies is a side thing. My “side project” has more doors opening than my acting career. That’s sad. I haven’t booked a project, short film, commercial, feature…NOTHING in like 3 months. AAAGGGHHH! So we are going to see what happens. The strike is over. Got new headshots, signed with two new agencies. Next step is finding a manager. SUBMIT SUBMIT SUBMIT.  Somebody has to say yes right?? If Taraji can say yes, if Ms. Palcy can say yes, if Tanya Kersey can say yes, then damnit, a producer a casting director can say yes too right? How hard is it to form your mouth to say the word….not that hard at all….back to the drawing board  

So it started with a newsletter.

I wanted to spotlight women in film. Interview a few current filmmakers, post articles of women in film history who have broken down some walls. 

Then I got the bright idea to do my radio & TV show spotlighting the women. 

Went to a friends cafe to drop something off and noticed he had a projection screen. Asked him if he could show movies on it, if it worked, etc… and he said yes!

So you know ole nikki love has to take this a step further and do it real big!


THURSDAY, MARCH 26, 7pm!

REEL Women in Film Mixer & Spotlight!

Having the ladies come out to mingle, drink some cocktails, watch a short film produced, written, or directed by a woman.

Providing a platform for women to show their hard work, and for others to learn and get inspired by their work. This is a tough business, and it takes something extra to be in this for the long haul. To put up with rejection, to try to be patient while you wait for your next film project.


VIEW EVITE HERE

Hit me up if you are interested in attending.

I’m about to turn this into something big. Who’s coming along for the ride???! 

I look into you eyes and hear the language of my soul

and so I sit still, and let love and truth unfold

in me

tapped into the divinity 

& came face to face with Almighty

Am I worthy?

Your eyes tell me yes

So begins the process 

Let my Spirit manifest

and now Truth begins to speak

and pushes me into a room

where darkness consumes

and Love lets me know that this isnt my tomb

But rather my Womb 

I’m about to be born

Have to be Transformed

Turn myself into My SELF

and there is Shelom

A Godly peace where I AM that I AM

& I BE that I BE

I am in you, and you are in me

I look into your eyes and fall into…

Eternity

 a poem by nikki love

So we have wrapped on the short film “Kai” this weekend. And baaaaaby let me tell you, we ran into some serious setbacks, BUT I had a FRIKKIN BLAST! 

Its something about being on set. Watching magic happen. I always feel so wrapped up in the moment. Lights, Camera, Action! I LOVE IT, although I am exhausted. 

I came on board this project from a friends referral. He said, “hey, you should hook up with her because she’s on the grind, like you”. And initially I am always weary of meeting new people, especially females, just cuz…and yall know what I’m talking about. And then being out here, you meet up with people who are all talk, and you have to sift and sort thru people’s BS. But she is the shit. And I’m glad that I got to work on her project. 

Still have pick ups to do for Catt Tales. I can’t wait to finish this piece. I can’t believe how when things lined up how they were supposed to, doors opened up.  We had so many scheduling problems initially, and I was about ready to just scrap the whole idea. But God had other plans for me I suppose. 

I got something brewing yall. And once I line it all up, I will hit you with it. But it’s pretty hot. It’s a big project that I have to take the baby steps, and do the research, and pour a little time and energy into.  So *crossed fingers*.

Got an email from the producer of the last feature I shot a few months ago. He said that the film is just about completed, should be by March. I am fond of this piece, saw some footage and it looks damn good!! LOL

Went to Corey Grant’s screening of Studio at the PanAfrican Film Festival.

So this week, I have been inspired. I am full. I have met new people in the industry. I have seen a friends hard work pay off. I have seen my own hard work pay off.  

Gotta keep this thing moving.  

NIU had a tragedy today. Northern Illinois University, that was my school.I attended 97-2000.

So, I’m at work today and my phone starts blowing up all of a sudden, from some college friends back at home that are still in the Dekalb and Rockford area.

The text simply says “A gunman opened fire in Cole Hall”.  Another text says “shooting at NIU”.

And being at work with no access to a TV, I’m getting pretty concerned. The story begins to trickle in. After the frantic clearance of making sure my peoples are okay.”Gunman dead”, WHY CANT THESE PEOPLE BE MORE SPECIFIC!!

I’m at work trying to deal with Memberships, sponsorships, and what not, and my phone keeps buzzing with these kryptic messages.

So after I send a threatening message to these people that they better get a bit more detailed in these messages, I get the whole story. How tragic! 5 minutes before class ended, can you imagine?? You’re sitting in class, kinda impatient cuz it’s Valentines Day, and you probably zoning out wondering about your valentines plans, your date, your outfit, thinking about why the hell did you bother to come to class anyway, but you’ve already missed too many days anyway, when some fool comes up on stage dressed in black and lets loose!

What the hell?! What do you think? Do you go into autopilot? Do you drop and duck? or do you run? 

“I personally Army-crawled halfway up the aisle,” said Carr, a 20-year-old sophomore. “I said I could get up and run or I could die here.”

How powerful! And how sad, that you are in a spot where it’s supposed to be safe. You are in an environment that nurtures knowledge, and helps you to grow and expand, and moves you towards your future, only to have some bitter jackass come and take it all away from you!

I’m speechless. It makes me wonder, how blessed I was to go about my mundane academic career. Nothing too crazy, the occasional fist fights, the typical backstabbing, but nothing TRAGIC, nothing that shatters your life. Just class, report cards, grades, walking from one end of the campus to the other, hanging out in the gym, etc…

I am stunned, shocked, and saddened.

NIU, my huskies, keep your head up  

PICS  

Saw this on somebody’s page. Thought it was pretty interesting. I’m in a state of mindlessness right now, so I needed some light entertainment
If you could rid the earth of 3 things, what would they be: 
roaches, the $2 bill (what the hell am i going to do with those things?? what cost $2 nowadays anyway), periods

What is one thing in life you feel most guilty about?:
i will never tell!!!!

If you could’ve known someone as a child that you know now who would it be?:
my SELF

Who is the single most charming person you have ever met?:
met a few that i may have only had a 20 minute convo with, yet and still walked away with something that totally changed my life, or my views, or equipped me with a piece of knowledge i didnt have previously

If you could eliminate one emotion from your life, which would it be?:
drunkeness. if could drink like i used to, i would be a happy camper

You suddenly find yourself at the Pearly Gates - make your case for entry:
i loved you with all of my heart
If you could give one thing to each of your ex-lovers, what would it be?:
not a damn thing. it’s a reason they are an ex in the first place!

If you had to confess the most evil thing you’ve ever done what would it be?:
too many to name.

What is one personality trait you’ve tried hardest to change in yourself?:
ummm didnt really try that hard. ok, maybe self pity and self doubt

What would you say is the silliest thing people do in general?:
keep fooling with folks that they KNOW are trifling, and then get mad when at some point down the line, that person lived up to who they revealed themselves to be in the first place.

What is the most difficult goodbye you’ve ever said?:
my father

What is the grossest thing you ever put in your mouth?:
a dick. i mean seriously, think about it…nut, piss, and secretions come from this thing, and you put it in your mouth and suck till it makes your jaws hurt. seriously

Who is the biggest hypocrite you have ever met?:
some of my family members

Decide a new punishment for convicted murderers, besides the death penalty:
war.

What would you say is the most beautiful word in your own language?:
YAHWEH

What was your worst case of putting your foot in your mouth?:
too long to type the story

What is the most embarrassing moment of your life?:
walking down the street with a big period stain, and wondering why the hell all these damn people are looking at me. i kept thinking, i know my hat aint that damn cute!! LOL

If the U.S. had to sacrifice one state, which one would you give away?:
mississippi. just cause i hate how many letters are in it. i wonder if the guy who came up with the spelling was high?

Out of all your friends, who do you think would be easiest to seduce:
all of my friends are sluts and whores, they would be easy to seduce!!

If you were 6 inches tall for a day, what would you do?:
what the hell is there to do?? maybe sneak into peoples houses and be nosey

If God were to appear to you in any form, how would you want him to appear?:
just as He already does

If you could forget one thing, what would it be?:
being raped

Would you ever want to date yourself as a member of the opposite sex?:
damn skippy! this is ole nikki love you talking about!!! LOL

Would you ever have your spouse followed to find out if they were cheating?
nah, takes too much energy. the truth always comes out eventually. and most of the time, if you think your spouse is cheating, then they probably are

Did you ever have an imaginary friend? How would you describe them?:
just books and movies. my imagination took me to quite a few places. but friends, no.

If God were to grant you one favor, what would you ask?
just let me in when it’s all over and done with

If you could invent one new home appliance, what would it do?:
a vibrator that could wash clothes and cook

What is one occassion that you were unjustly angry?:
if i’m pissed, better believe theres a damn good reason.

Who is one old friend you wish you could go back, apologize to and start over with?
nobody

If you could be smarter or prettier which would you pick?
richer

If you could be the parent of some one who changes the world - what would you like them to do?
change the mindset of a lot of minorities.

If you could stop one major crime from having ever taken place - which would it be?
abortions

if you could commit one crime and get away with it forever - what would it be?
killing my bitch ass sister in law

If you could have one superpower what would it be?
to make money magically appear!!!

If you had a million dollars that you had to donate to 2 charities which would it be?
the nikki love foundation, and the jnlmedia foundation