Psychotic Ambition

It’s been awhile since I’ve written, shame shame. A lot of stuff going on though.

So the short film I acted in, “A Baby Away”, has been doing really good hitting the festival market.

It is now currently the official selection at the Hollywood Black Film Festival, San Francisco Black Film Festival, AND Martha’s Vineyard Black Film Festival!!

WOW! I’m impressed.

Finally got my reel updated (including a scene from A Baby Away), you can check it out on my site and of course MySpace and YouTube!!

Had my screening for the feature film “Losing Faith” that premiered. At first I was really nervous because I hadn’t seen the finished project, but came out REALLY GOOD!! I’m excited. Going to be hitting festivals soon!

Finally heard back from the producers of “No Answer”, they are anticipating completion by the end of the summer

So I’m still plugging along, so far so good.

Teaming up with a friend of mine to get some movies green lit and slated. Just gonna hammer them out!!!

Might be signing with the agency The Gage Group, crossed fingers.

So that’s what’s up with Nikki Love. Nothing new.

On another note. I have been pondering on this concept of eternity.

If Eternity is everlasting, doesn’t that mean that we are in it right now?! And if we are in the middle of eternity, endless time until the Lord sees fit, we are just these beings on a tiny tiny spectrum of the timeline. What are you doing with your time? Are you wasting it or utilizing it?

Eternity is such an awesome concept is it not? This universe has been in existence for billions of years, and here we are. At THIS time, at THIS place, with THESE people surrounding us. Why now? Why weren’t you designed and roaming the earth 100 years ago, why not 10,000 years ago…

FOR SOME GODLY REASON, you are designed to be the person you are RIGHT NOW on this neverending spin through space on the timeline of “eternity”….

How amazing and awesome is that??

hmmm….

The past two weeks I have been busy getting REEL Ladies networking off the ground. We had our first networking mixer at the ladera chess cafe, it went great! Me and keena had originally said, “okay, if we get 20 women to come out, then we have something”. But then like 75 had RSVP’d so we freaked out and had to go rent chairs and buy all this extra shit, but of course only like 30 showed up. We had candles, wine, food, and Miss Angela Gibbs. She shared her journey with the ladies. How she hit roadblocks as a filmmaker and an actress. It was amazing.

What 2 women can do. I think we lost some of our audience because we did it in Inglewood. Hell, I know I JUST started going out there myself!! And that’s only to the cafe!! LOL

So we are going to move it to a more central location. Went and networked and passed out some of our fliers at the Sisters Doing it for Themselves and SWAN Day with the Alliance of Women Directors.

Anywhoo, I am inspired. I feel like my mojo had diminished some, but I see it coming back.

Sometimes the dream is soooo frikkin tangible and sometimes it’s so distant.

I’ve been exhausted. I have 2 scripts to finish and I’ve been stuck. My brain has been racing too much, I can’t focus. I sit down to write and nothing…*sigh*

I feel like I am back at that place again, where I am pouring my energy into the wrong things. Like An Empowered Woman. Don’t get me wrong. I like that job, but hell…IT’S A JOB!

If I had the choice, of course I want to work for myself. I want to act. I want to model…”Mama, I Wants to SANG!!” LOL

So it’s a constant battle. Get up go to work. Collect a paycheck. Hustle for REEL Ladies, Hustle for JNL Media. Hustle for Nikki Love…all on the side!

Don’t want MY projects to be on the side. That’s just craziness to me. But bills gotta get paid, rent is due!! So mama has to hustle.

Keep striving, keep moving, keep dreaming, keep hustling, keep putting one foot in front of the other. REEL Ladies has inspired me. Talking to these women, have inspired me. I’m in awe.

Make sure you check out our REEL LADIES BLOG.

So it started with a newsletter.

I wanted to spotlight women in film. Interview a few current filmmakers, post articles of women in film history who have broken down some walls. 

Then I got the bright idea to do my radio & TV show spotlighting the women. 

Went to a friends cafe to drop something off and noticed he had a projection screen. Asked him if he could show movies on it, if it worked, etc… and he said yes!

So you know ole nikki love has to take this a step further and do it real big!


THURSDAY, MARCH 26, 7pm!

REEL Women in Film Mixer & Spotlight!

Having the ladies come out to mingle, drink some cocktails, watch a short film produced, written, or directed by a woman.

Providing a platform for women to show their hard work, and for others to learn and get inspired by their work. This is a tough business, and it takes something extra to be in this for the long haul. To put up with rejection, to try to be patient while you wait for your next film project.


VIEW EVITE HERE

Hit me up if you are interested in attending.

I’m about to turn this into something big. Who’s coming along for the ride???! 

NIU had a tragedy today. Northern Illinois University, that was my school.I attended 97-2000.

So, I’m at work today and my phone starts blowing up all of a sudden, from some college friends back at home that are still in the Dekalb and Rockford area.

The text simply says “A gunman opened fire in Cole Hall”.  Another text says “shooting at NIU”.

And being at work with no access to a TV, I’m getting pretty concerned. The story begins to trickle in. After the frantic clearance of making sure my peoples are okay.”Gunman dead”, WHY CANT THESE PEOPLE BE MORE SPECIFIC!!

I’m at work trying to deal with Memberships, sponsorships, and what not, and my phone keeps buzzing with these kryptic messages.

So after I send a threatening message to these people that they better get a bit more detailed in these messages, I get the whole story. How tragic! 5 minutes before class ended, can you imagine?? You’re sitting in class, kinda impatient cuz it’s Valentines Day, and you probably zoning out wondering about your valentines plans, your date, your outfit, thinking about why the hell did you bother to come to class anyway, but you’ve already missed too many days anyway, when some fool comes up on stage dressed in black and lets loose!

What the hell?! What do you think? Do you go into autopilot? Do you drop and duck? or do you run? 

“I personally Army-crawled halfway up the aisle,” said Carr, a 20-year-old sophomore. “I said I could get up and run or I could die here.”

How powerful! And how sad, that you are in a spot where it’s supposed to be safe. You are in an environment that nurtures knowledge, and helps you to grow and expand, and moves you towards your future, only to have some bitter jackass come and take it all away from you!

I’m speechless. It makes me wonder, how blessed I was to go about my mundane academic career. Nothing too crazy, the occasional fist fights, the typical backstabbing, but nothing TRAGIC, nothing that shatters your life. Just class, report cards, grades, walking from one end of the campus to the other, hanging out in the gym, etc…

I am stunned, shocked, and saddened.

NIU, my huskies, keep your head up  

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