Your Eyes

February 23, 2008 at 5:20 am (Life) (, , , , , , , , , , , , )

I look into you eyes and hear the language of my soul

and so I sit still, and let love and truth unfold

in me

tapped into the divinity 

& came face to face with Almighty

Am I worthy?

Your eyes tell me yes

So begins the process 

Let my Spirit manifest

and now Truth begins to speak

and pushes me into a room

where darkness consumes

and Love lets me know that this isnt my tomb

But rather my Womb 

I’m about to be born

Have to be Transformed

Turn myself into My SELF

and there is Shelom

A Godly peace where I AM that I AM

& I BE that I BE

I am in you, and you are in me

I look into your eyes and fall into…

Eternity

 a poem by nikki love

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busy little bee

February 20, 2008 at 5:26 am (Film) (, , , , , , , , , , )

So we have wrapped on the short film “Kai” this weekend. And baaaaaby let me tell you, we ran into some serious setbacks, BUT I had a FRIKKIN BLAST! 

Its something about being on set. Watching magic happen. I always feel so wrapped up in the moment. Lights, Camera, Action! I LOVE IT, although I am exhausted. 

I came on board this project from a friends referral. He said, “hey, you should hook up with her because she’s on the grind, like you”. And initially I am always weary of meeting new people, especially females, just cuz…and yall know what I’m talking about. And then being out here, you meet up with people who are all talk, and you have to sift and sort thru people’s BS. But she is the shit. And I’m glad that I got to work on her project. 

Still have pick ups to do for Catt Tales. I can’t wait to finish this piece. I can’t believe how when things lined up how they were supposed to, doors opened up.  We had so many scheduling problems initially, and I was about ready to just scrap the whole idea. But God had other plans for me I suppose. 

I got something brewing yall. And once I line it all up, I will hit you with it. But it’s pretty hot. It’s a big project that I have to take the baby steps, and do the research, and pour a little time and energy into.  So *crossed fingers*.

Got an email from the producer of the last feature I shot a few months ago. He said that the film is just about completed, should be by March. I am fond of this piece, saw some footage and it looks damn good!! LOL

Went to Corey Grant’s screening of Studio at the PanAfrican Film Festival.

So this week, I have been inspired. I am full. I have met new people in the industry. I have seen a friends hard work pay off. I have seen my own hard work pay off.  

Gotta keep this thing moving.  

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NIU

February 15, 2008 at 7:08 am (Life, Stuff) (, , , , , , , , , , , , , , )

NIU had a tragedy today. Northern Illinois University, that was my school.I attended 97-2000.

So, I’m at work today and my phone starts blowing up all of a sudden, from some college friends back at home that are still in the Dekalb and Rockford area.

The text simply says “A gunman opened fire in Cole Hall”.  Another text says “shooting at NIU”.

And being at work with no access to a TV, I’m getting pretty concerned. The story begins to trickle in. After the frantic clearance of making sure my peoples are okay.”Gunman dead”, WHY CANT THESE PEOPLE BE MORE SPECIFIC!!

I’m at work trying to deal with Memberships, sponsorships, and what not, and my phone keeps buzzing with these kryptic messages.

So after I send a threatening message to these people that they better get a bit more detailed in these messages, I get the whole story. How tragic! 5 minutes before class ended, can you imagine?? You’re sitting in class, kinda impatient cuz it’s Valentines Day, and you probably zoning out wondering about your valentines plans, your date, your outfit, thinking about why the hell did you bother to come to class anyway, but you’ve already missed too many days anyway, when some fool comes up on stage dressed in black and lets loose!

What the hell?! What do you think? Do you go into autopilot? Do you drop and duck? or do you run? 

“I personally Army-crawled halfway up the aisle,” said Carr, a 20-year-old sophomore. “I said I could get up and run or I could die here.”

How powerful! And how sad, that you are in a spot where it’s supposed to be safe. You are in an environment that nurtures knowledge, and helps you to grow and expand, and moves you towards your future, only to have some bitter jackass come and take it all away from you!

I’m speechless. It makes me wonder, how blessed I was to go about my mundane academic career. Nothing too crazy, the occasional fist fights, the typical backstabbing, but nothing TRAGIC, nothing that shatters your life. Just class, report cards, grades, walking from one end of the campus to the other, hanging out in the gym, etc…

I am stunned, shocked, and saddened.

NIU, my huskies, keep your head up  

PICS  

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SURVEY TIME!

February 9, 2008 at 4:47 am (Life, Stuff) (, , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , )

Saw this on somebody’s page. Thought it was pretty interesting. I’m in a state of mindlessness right now, so I needed some light entertainment
If you could rid the earth of 3 things, what would they be: 
roaches, the $2 bill (what the hell am i going to do with those things?? what cost $2 nowadays anyway), periods

What is one thing in life you feel most guilty about?:
i will never tell!!!! :)

If you could’ve known someone as a child that you know now who would it be?:
my SELF

Who is the single most charming person you have ever met?:
met a few that i may have only had a 20 minute convo with, yet and still walked away with something that totally changed my life, or my views, or equipped me with a piece of knowledge i didnt have previously

If you could eliminate one emotion from your life, which would it be?:
drunkeness. if could drink like i used to, i would be a happy camper

You suddenly find yourself at the Pearly Gates - make your case for entry:
i loved you with all of my heart
If you could give one thing to each of your ex-lovers, what would it be?:
not a damn thing. it’s a reason they are an ex in the first place!

If you had to confess the most evil thing you’ve ever done what would it be?:
too many to name.

What is one personality trait you’ve tried hardest to change in yourself?:
ummm didnt really try that hard. ok, maybe self pity and self doubt

What would you say is the silliest thing people do in general?:
keep fooling with folks that they KNOW are trifling, and then get mad when at some point down the line, that person lived up to who they revealed themselves to be in the first place.

What is the most difficult goodbye you’ve ever said?:
my father

What is the grossest thing you ever put in your mouth?:
a dick. i mean seriously, think about it…nut, piss, and secretions come from this thing, and you put it in your mouth and suck till it makes your jaws hurt. seriously

Who is the biggest hypocrite you have ever met?:
some of my family members

Decide a new punishment for convicted murderers, besides the death penalty:
war.

What would you say is the most beautiful word in your own language?:
YAHWEH

What was your worst case of putting your foot in your mouth?:
too long to type the story

What is the most embarrassing moment of your life?:
walking down the street with a big period stain, and wondering why the hell all these damn people are looking at me. i kept thinking, i know my hat aint that damn cute!! LOL

If the U.S. had to sacrifice one state, which one would you give away?:
mississippi. just cause i hate how many letters are in it. i wonder if the guy who came up with the spelling was high?

Out of all your friends, who do you think would be easiest to seduce:
all of my friends are sluts and whores, they would be easy to seduce!! :)

If you were 6 inches tall for a day, what would you do?:
what the hell is there to do?? maybe sneak into peoples houses and be nosey

If God were to appear to you in any form, how would you want him to appear?:
just as He already does

If you could forget one thing, what would it be?:
being raped

Would you ever want to date yourself as a member of the opposite sex?:
damn skippy! this is ole nikki love you talking about!!! LOL

Would you ever have your spouse followed to find out if they were cheating?
nah, takes too much energy. the truth always comes out eventually. and most of the time, if you think your spouse is cheating, then they probably are

Did you ever have an imaginary friend? How would you describe them?:
just books and movies. my imagination took me to quite a few places. but friends, no.

If God were to grant you one favor, what would you ask?
just let me in when it’s all over and done with

If you could invent one new home appliance, what would it do?:
a vibrator that could wash clothes and cook

What is one occassion that you were unjustly angry?:
if i’m pissed, better believe theres a damn good reason.

Who is one old friend you wish you could go back, apologize to and start over with?
nobody

If you could be smarter or prettier which would you pick?
richer

If you could be the parent of some one who changes the world - what would you like them to do?
change the mindset of a lot of minorities.

If you could stop one major crime from having ever taken place - which would it be?
abortions

if you could commit one crime and get away with it forever - what would it be?
killing my bitch ass sister in law

If you could have one superpower what would it be?
to make money magically appear!!!

If you had a million dollars that you had to donate to 2 charities which would it be?
the nikki love foundation, and the jnlmedia foundation :P

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